I must rant!

First off, all of you who have been praying for my mom and have been so supportive of me, I want you to know this is NOT about you. I cherish each and every one of you and wish I could see you in person to give you a great big hug and thank you.

When my mom got sick I emailed everyone in my contact list who I knew was a Christian and would pray for her. That list included a distant relative who lives in Tennessee. I now realize that was a GIANT MISTAKE.

Rather than being supportive of our little family, the distant cousin who lives in Tennessee, called another elderly distant cousin(who doesn't have net, therefore didn't get the email) who lives in West Virginia, and told them that my mom was dying with cancer. These two old cows have nothing better to do than to try and stir up trouble.

So this elderly cousin calls our house, and says that TN cousin said that Penny was dying from cancer. She asks how mom is doing and then starts in about our late aunt's estate. Did we get anything? NO. Have we talked to her husband? NO. And other assorted crap that we just don't want to be bothered with. * Did she ask if there was anything she could do? NO. Did she say she would offer prayer? NO. Did she keep her conversation short and sweet so that my mom would not get tired out? NO- she kept mom on the phone for 86 minutes.

OK now for those of you out there keeping score, you know my mother has cancer, but she is not dying yet. Her doctors tell us that they fully believe she will make a full recovery and they are treating her with a curative intent.

I am just LIVID! Anybody with half a brain should have the good sense not to call somebody and just blurt out-Barb said you were dying? You know it really shows me Satan in action. I am working so HARD to improve myself and my relationship with the Lord by being kind and forgiving.
I have always been a Christian but I am human. Simply by being human, we are all sinners, we all have issues. Anger is my biggest one.

Last week Deanna wrote about anger and how it affected her relationship with her sons.
She included James 1:19-20 and it hit me like a hammer. Oh how I needed that verse!
I have a horrible temper, and fly off the handle quite often.
I am horrid when I get behind the wheel, I am not kind to fellow drivers. I call them every name in the book and in general just spread ill-will. I have often joked about buying a tank so that I could just push people out of my way-if that gives you any idea of my road rage.

So I am working on controlling these things in order to be closer to God. The harder I work on myself the more people keep coming at me with pettiness, gossip and just in general trying my patience. The call today really felt like an attack from Satan.

So I have to forgive this person and I will pray for her. That is the right thing to do.










*the 411 about my aunt is not pretty-she died exactly one month after a "fall" on Christmas day 2005. I put "fall" in quotes because some information has come to light about her husband that leads me to look at her fall's in a new suspicious light. The woman was not clumsy. I don't know why I didn't see it at the time. Her husband didn't call us when she died, I only learned about it from an email the day of the visitation when it was too late to get there. We barely made it to the funeral. Her husband didn't speak to us at all. He also didn't file her will, and instead told everyone she didn't have one, so he could keep everything for himself. We could probably sue, but we won't. He is an evil man and when he dies, he will only have my aunt's hard-earned money to bid him farewell. He alienates people for sport. There is so much more that I could write about but I won't. I only want to be a positive light in the world. For me taking him to court, and dredging up the past would not be positive.